I wonder what Jesus thought and felt during this week prior to His crucifixion and death. He knew what was coming but was still determined to do what He came to the world to accomplish. That week He confronted the merchants, and the pharisees, Judas, and even a fig tree.
He met with his disciples and celebrated the Passover meal with
the twelve. He prayed for the children
given to Him by the Father – His followers.
He also included us in His prayer – the ones who would hear of Him in
the future, have faith in Him and would remain in the world.
I consider and try to imagine the dread Jesus must, (truly
must) have felt. He was a man, after all
and as a man as well as God, He would have had to viscerally dread what He knew
would come. When we read the accounts of
this week, of His suffering, we can’t help but get physically involved as well. If my heart does not ache, if I do not feel my
blood pressure rising, if I can ignore the picture portrayed in the garden, in
the courtyard, before Pilot, then I wonder if I truly understand the depth of
His love.
All this pain, even prior to His actual crucifixion must
have been unbearable – but He did bear it for you, for me, for all the people
who would come, or had gone before.
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He might have said -
The night that Satan thought he had me, the night he
planned his victory,
the night his servant Judas kissed me – began my walk to
Calvary.
Rough arms came, reached out, and seized me.
A dear friend drew his sword to fight.
I said “No angry swords are called for.
It has to be this way tonight.”
Oh don't you think I could withstand them at any time if I
should try.
Oh don't you know ten thousand angels would be at hand with
just a cry.
Lead me on the way to Calvary.
We'll take the road together now.
I'll walk along - no need to drag me
for I won't use my heavenly power.
Oh I could call ten thousand angels if I wanted to be free.
But my love for you will keep me silent.
For
I’ve lived to die upon that tree.
As you see the pain and suffering that He endured, may you also see the unbelievable love that He has for each of us.
Love,
Diane